Patience is a Virtue!

I've been having a rough week and I am not going to share my guts about every stress I am having here on my blog, but I just want to share a few thoughts. 

Life is hard! It really is and sometimes it gets so hard that I just want to run away somewhere, just get away and not have to worry about a care in the world! Living with Crohns isn't easy, being married isn't easy, and living in this world isn't easy! I know that everyone deals with their own things, and I truly believe that every person is given different challenges for a reason. We all handle things in different ways and I am not going to compare myself to others. I just know that my plate isn't easy for me and my patience is truly being tested. 

Patience is a virtue that I have really struggled with. It is so hard for me to be patient for the things that I really want in this world! Time is going by so fast but yet so slow at the same time. It is so hard to explain. My friend brought to my attention, through his talk last Sunday, the great virtue of patience. Obviously it is something that I am very aware of but this virtue is discussed and explained in the Preach My Gospel manual thoroughly, to the point that it almost seemed like a whole new word to me. Reading about it brings me so much comfort but yet makes me feel so confused at the same time. Where do I even start to try and show patience and apply patience in my life? 

I guess a lot of it is just practicing more faith in my life. Praying and allowing the worries in my life to be taken off my shoulders and just putting them in God's hands. "Patience is the capacity to endure delay, trouble, opposition, or suffering, without becoming angry, frustrated, or anxious. It is the ability to do God's will and accept His timing." I get upset and anxious so easily that I do it without thinking. It feels so automatic! "When you are patient, you hold up under pressure and are able to face adversity calmly and hopefully. Patience is related to hope and faith--you must wait for the Lord's promised blessings to be fulfilled." I am going to have to remember these things daily and pray for help to strengthen me and allow me to have more faith and to stay calm. "You need patience in your everyday experiences and relationship, especially with your companion. You must be patient with all people, yourself included, as you work to overcome faults and weaknesses." 

This world is full of people, all imperfect. It is hard to remember that. It is also hard knowing that I am not perfect but trying to be every day for myself and especially for my husband. As I have gotten older, my faults and weaknesses have become so much more apparent to me. I am learning more and more about myself and how to get through this life. I need to remember that this world is only temporary. I CAN have patience. I need to allow myself to rely on the Lord, and have faith that as long as I am staying righteous and keeping my promises that I will be blessed when it is the right time. 

"Life is full of difficulties, some minor and others of a more

 serious nature. There seems to be an unending supply of 

challenges for one and all. Our problem is that we often

expect instantaneous solutions to such challenges, forgetting 

that frequently the heavenly virtue of patience is required."

-President Thomas S. Monson