A long Week!

It seriously felt like the longest week of my life and I am referring to this last week. Not only were the days at work super long and stressful, but we had our storage closet inside our car port broken into. It was the worst feeling walking back to my car to go to work to find the entire door of the closet pulled off by the hinges. There were things pulled out on the floor cause they definitely knew what they were going for. MY BIKE! My beautiful beach cruiser bike that had a basket on the front and everything. I will be honest, I havent ridden it much because it is a hassle to get it in and out of that closet, but i planned to ride it when we eventually move out of this condo and into a home with a garage. But i seriously stood there in shock, staring at the space where my bike used to be. I just felt so violated and so angry and so sad to the point where I called clayton on the phone right where i was standing and immediately started to cry to him about it. He was shocked as well but there was no way i could go to work with this door off with hundreds of thousands dollars left of equipment and tools left there for anyone to find and steal. I still dont understand how anyone who is willing to steal my bike, wouldnt steal anything else that was worth soooo much! So we got lucky in that case. SO i went over to our neighbors that we have come to know well enough, and he helped me move most of the things back into my house and some things into our car trunks for the time being, till we fix our door, add security, and get renters insurance. We had been holding off renters insurance but now we are super anxious to get it! I was grateful to have the help but all of this had me late to work and just set off my day in an awful way. All day, I was so bitter and if i thought about it, I would start tearing up. I feel like every person i see walking around my house now, im going to think they stole my bike. I hate feeling that way, not being able to trust, but honestly, i dont know if ill ever get over it. It really is a shame to feel like you cant ultimately trust people around you.

So this experience was awful but also there was the news of the Connecticut shooting. This has affected me so much. I think its because I work at a preschool, and just imagining these small children, so innocent, getting shot for no reason, just brought me to tears. I watched news videos when I got home and I just couldnt help but choke up. I just wanted to go back to the preschool and hug all my kids. Spending every day with them has brought me to be soooo attatched. And then imagining my amazing coworkers possibly being shot just kills me to think about. Nobody deserves what this man did and it is just sickening for me to think that people truly believe that the way to stop these types of things is by changing gun laws. I posted a status on facebook about it so I dont feel the need to go into too much detail about my thoughts on the matter, but there are so many other things that need to be attacked or changed. Not gun control!!!!


The weekend did end on a better note.  I had my family christmas dinner which was a lot of fun. I love my family and I feel so fortunate to live so close to everyone to where most all of us can meet together for these special occasions. We did it a little differently this year. Every one is tight on money so we went out to eat a restaurant but usually we do a home cooked meal, have a visit from santa, have desserts and have a christmas program. I missed doing that this year, but i am grateful that we were at least able to all get together.

Today I had my second treatment of Remicade. It really knocked me out this time. I slept for a good while ha I am glad that jordan came with us to keep clayton company. It is such a long treatment, 3 hours!! haaha after the first treatment, i was feeling better most days but some days not so much. im hoping after this second treatment, ill be really feeling great! Im praying to not have another surgery!!! My next treatment is in 4 weeks and then ill be having an MRI to check it all out. Ill keep you updated :)