A rough day...

Soooo, This morning I had my first Remicade appointment set up at 8 am. It took a whole month to get this appointment set up so I was extremely anxious for it. I set my alarm for 7:15 am but for some reason I woke up at 8:37 with no remembrance of my alarm ever going off! Clayton didnt hear the alarm either which is just so strange. I woke up feeling way to rejuvinated for it being "before 7:15" and as soon as I saw the time, I jumped up while yelling for clayton to get up, telling him the time. Ha he told me later on that he felt like he was in a scene of the movie Home Alone, with how we jumped out of bed and were rushing left and right to get ourselves out the door. I called to make sure we would be able to still come since we would be an HOUR late by the time we got there. I was SO lucky that they said I could still come! I was in tears thinking of the possibility that they wouldnt be able to take me.
We got there and thank goodness they have free valet so we were able to just pull up and get out. It didnt take long when we were in there to get set up and then they started to ask me questions. They asked if I have had any signs of sickness lately and I said to them that I have had a scratchy throat the last few nights but I just assume that it is from lack of sleep. GOSH, part of me wishes I hadnt said anything but I just have to share every detail about every thing. Ha I guess if you have shown any signs of sickness, they are unable to give you the infusion. So they decided to give my doctor a call to ask her what she thought they should do. If it were up to me, I would have just ignored the fact that I have had a scratchy throat. My doctor is hard to get ahold of so I sat there for a bit and they decided to just take my blood and what not while they were waiting to hear back from the doctor. My doctor finally returned their call and informed them to cancel the appointment. I burst into tears. I couldnt help it and i was so embarrassed for doing it. I was just so disappointed! It had taken so long to get this appointment and I just feel that the longer I wait, the more likely I will need to have another surgery :( Now I have to wait another two weeks before I can go in again.
It just mind boggles me how I didnt wake up to my alarm and then to be turned away after I got there. It makes me wonder if I was truly just being watched over. I am very upset about not having the infusion today but for some reason I am feeling that this was the Lords doing. I guess a person in the past who was given an infusion with some symptoms of being sick, ended up being in the emergency room by the end of the day and almost died. I dont know, maybe im just being silly; but I am grateful. It sucks that I have to wait, and it makes me want to cry every time I start to think about it again but I just have to remember that it happened for a reason.

On a positive note! Clayton had a great last show of Sweeney Todd last night. I enjoyed it even more the second time watching it :) I took a picture of the whole cast afterwards. It is a bummer that they are throwing the stage away that they worked so hard to build. I am excited though for future productions. Clayton hasn't said whether or not he was going to try out for another one, but I hope he does! :)